Im not a shy person. . i believe that if you like someone then you should go for it. . so why cant i make up my mind if i like you or not. ?

I want to bleed. .
i want to cut. .
i want to feel that way again. .
but i cant. . because i promised you. .
but your not always here. .

Im so sick of being haunted by your face. .
i wish you were dead for what you did to me. .
i wish i was dead for having to live with what you did to me. !

Since when did it become the childs responibly to take charge of the family ? ?

I dont no what ive done. .
i dont no what ive became. .
i dont no who i am anymore. .
i dont no if anyone is still out there. .
i just dont no. .

You changed my life
made me feel good again
&& now all i want is too hold you
i wish you didnt live so far away. .

These scars aint going to stay hidden for much longer
i hope i pray i can do it all over again
i wish for the pain to go away
i just want to be able to sleep again
&& not be so haunted. .

Im sorry i never ment to act that way
im sorry. .

Am i cursed or something??
i have lost 3 people in three months. .
i dont think i could live through the 4th. .

Im sick of feeling like a used up s#*t
i wish some guy would see me for me and not my body. .
beauity is more than skin deep. .