You [w e r e] the only exception...

She throws another glass,
Just to hear the noise.
The silence screams the truth,
She is trying so hard to avoid..

& at some point along the road i realized "im sorry" just wasnt good enough...it doesnt take the pain away...

I wish it was still easy to love you...
but its just not and I dont know how to go back anymore....

...how do i not hurt him? he is like my "Jacob" from twighlight...he is crazy for me...while i sit and pray i could feel l the same way...he stays around for me, while i break his heart....

She looked him in the eyes & said "you are permanent for me"
& he said "so why dont you act like it"
she replied "..because I am not permanent for you.."

& all that night she whispered "please God, let me hate him!"

My mind is saying "Come on get out of there quick! He is HURTING you"
But my heart says "I cant let this slip away. I love who he used to be"

I want him to be happy.
but at the same time i want him to remember me everytime he is with her..
& when he is holding her,
i want him to feel like its not the right person in his arms....
i want him to miss me...

& the reason i cant move on is because...
i have nothing to move on to...
..i foolishly gave it all up for you....