She smashed the rearview mirror with her fist.
Because starting today..
she is [NEVER] looking back.

& the fact of the matter is she knows she needs to let him go but they have been through hell and back and she still feels like she needs him.

I held him as he cried on my chest knowing this was all my fault..

& she foolishly stays because she is too scared there wont be a future without him....

& each day she begs him to commit to just her...and each time he promises her he will she knows he is lying but she just cant seem to let him go...

"im trying not to love you
im trying not to care
im trying not to live my life,
wishing you were there
im trying not to wonder
where you are or what you do
..im sorry i cant help myself...
.i fell in love with you."

& the reason i cant move on is because...
i have nothing to move on to...
..i foolishly gave it all up for you....

I want him to be happy.
but at the same time i want him to remember me everytime he is with her..
& when he is holding her,
i want him to feel like its not the right person in his arms....
i want him to miss me...

My mind is saying "Come on get out of there quick! He is HURTING you"
But my heart says "I cant let this slip away. I love who he used to be"

& all that night she whispered "please God, let me hate him!"