I hate that I'll be entering a new year
without you...

Why do we want what we
can't have the most...

Surprisingly, I am not spending the holidays
in a court ordered facility, even though I...

I wake up without the scream.
It doesn't seek anything from me...

They're going to notice soon -
the hollowness in my eyes...

I feel it
- a nudge of safety...

It's exhausting to spend all my energy for the day...
This moment that hits me like a tidal wave...

Have I mentioned lately how I hate being reminded...
Is it so wrong to wish for someone to decide for...

Where's the sun?
I thought you promised...

it's 1 am & the coyotes cackle across the creek --
& how strange, it makes me feel less alone...

Sitting alone out in the cold
Begging for a speck of hope to hold...

I felt seasons shift
in your silence...