No matter how many poems I create,
Or how many times I write...

Bloody tears and salty wounds,
Are all these eyes can see...

** I know it's long, but if you have time, please...
I watched you from a distance...

I love you, I hate you,
It's all too close to tell...

The carved out part of my heart is peeling back...
You, the doctor stand aside and watch my veins...

I saw you off in the distance
I was determined to turn myself around...

I feel the breathing on my neck
The rush of blood down my spine...

It's been the hardest five long years,
And it just keeps getting worse...

I thought tears were blue,
How come mine are red...

Did it hurt too much for you? Did it cause you too...
Because that's how it was for me. That's how it's...

How come you don't care anymore?
Why is it that you don't try...

I wonder if people fear these things I do,
Would it scare them more if I told the truth...