Irreversible Damage

I saw you off in the distance
I was determined to turn myself around
But I was forced into your direction
And craved to bury myself within the ground

Smiling faces seemed to surround me
But no one's expression matched mine
Memories flooded my uneasy head
Voices seemed to continually whine

Pain shot through my delicate body
Trembling when I got close enough to touch
I thought that I was over this
But the hurt effected me so damn much

And as always, you didn't notice me
My existence didn't seem to matter
I kept myself in the furthest corner
So you wouldn't hear my tear drops splatter

The loud music playing around me
Was no comparison to the noise in my head
To think that you knew everything
And try to comprehend why it is you fled

Maybe you neglected to care about it
Or perhaps you just couldn't remember
To KEEP the PROMISES you made to me
The ones you SAID you'd keep FOREVER

Don't start your sentences with "Always"
Because I saw something in you that changed
You put on a show to be accepted
Your soul is hidden and kept deranged

My respect for you is equivalent to nothing
And that's how it should have started
But seeing as how you made me trust you
I went into it whole-hearted

Now I know I will never forgive you
And an enemy is what you have thus become
Being near you seems to kill me
You're the one thing I'll always be running from.

-^ I can't even begin to describe what's going on inside me right now.