Five Long Years

It's been the hardest five long years,
And it just keeps getting worse,
There's nothing left to help me,
Nothing left to stop the hurt,

I'm tired of feeling so alone,
And trying to deal with all this pain,
I'm sick of relying on my dreams,
That I pray will help me through the day,

I just need someone to be there,
And not just when it's convenient,
I need someone to make the promise,
And someone who will mean it,

But everyone is so selfish,
And no one has the time,
So I turn to myself for coping,
And tell myself that I'll be fine,

But the truth is that I'm not,
And I'm tired of pretending I am,
Why doesn't anyone care about me?
I just don't understand,

Where in life did I go so wrong?
And why can't anyone see,
That inside there's so much sadness,
The hurt is killing me,

Why is it that I must suffer?
Now there's nothing left to blame,
All I need is a friend,
That will tell me, “It's okay.”

I've tried to make those wishes,
On the fairy tail stars that fall,
But no prayer has ever been answered,
Not one, not any at all,

I'm running out of options,
And incentive to get better,
No, I don't want to stay this way,
And feel this hurt forever,

But what else is there to do,
When no one sees my tears,
Or the scars that have accumulated,
Over these hard and long five years?

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