To my youngest son~~
You made your appearance on Valentine's Day...

To my oldest son~~~
You came into the world fourteen years ago...

Thoughts of us keep me awake
the ifs, the whens, the whys...

You think your actions were justified
because you have made me weak...

You've been so damn demeaning
you find greatness in my pain...

Each time I clear my thoughts of you
& I think that I'm doing fine...

I don't know what to do with myself
whenever you are around...

08-30-05
So what are you gonna do now...

07-21-05
I've finally come to a conclusion...

07-21-05
I wish you would just leave me alone...

08-11-05
Thank you for entering my life at a point when I...

I don't know what it is I feel
I guess I am just scared...