New Contest

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As there are many people involved in judging, results may take a little time to come in.

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Ok, here's the deal. The club that I belong to (Silently Masked) is hosting a contest. The rules are below.

No need to reserve.
Titles may be old or new.
We posted the subject, but you post the title.
The name of the title is reflected in judging.
The subjects are a little unusual, but fitting to our club.
Three poems per poet; must be your work.

Comments on the top three entries

15 comments for first place
10 comments for second
5 comments for third

Subjects are as follows:

Suicide
Depression
Lost love
Internal Pain
Emotional pain
Family issues
Divorce
Loneliness
No one understands me

Best of luck to all. Feel free to PM me for questions, or post them to the thread so everyone can benefit the answer.
Deadline is 10/15/2008

"You Did Change"

I never thought this would happen again
I thought it was all over between us
But now I can see you really did change
And now I'm happier than ever

Touching those lips of yours with mine
Feeling your arms wrapped around me
I never thought you would be here again
But it feels so good to have you here again

You're someone really special to me
More special than anyone else in my life
I'm never going to let you go
Because you're the only man I want

.:CiiNDY:.
.:10-5-08:.

Starless Nights

These Cold Nights
Are Eating Me Alive,
Wont You Stay
To Keep Me Warm
Tonight.

While I Stare;
The Sky Falls Around Me,
But You Still,
Are Not There.
And While I Waltz
Through The Ballroom
Full Of Twinkling Wonders,
My Mind Returns To You.
Gently And Slowly,
One By One They,
Began To Blink Out.

Frozen I Stood,
On The Marble Floor.

I Awoke.
Seeing The Last
Of Them Blink
and Fade Away,
Like The Insistent Noise
Of The Monitor
Next To Me.
Everything Left Me.
And Again I Found Myself
In That Wonderous Hall
Of The Starless Night.
All The Time Looking,
For A Mere Glimpse
Of Your Face.

The Gambler

He Throws his dice
Walks the line
And leaves his mind
Win or lose
Just a clink and pull away

Not an addiction
More like
A way of life

No thrill could kill
Him faster than this
Twenty grand in debt
Going on thirty
Adrenalin fuels
His addiction
His wife says hes a loser
But to him hes just
Another gambler

Red 32
The ball bounces
In a joyous kind of way
Black 28
Red quickly turns to white
As he loses another bet
The arc of his fist told us all
As they slammed down
Upon the table we watched
With vague remorse
As he was carried off

On the street
He gambled with his life
Needle full of smack
A line of Coke
Half a bottle later
Face down
In a ditch
Somewhere outside of town.

A Girl

No one heard the screams
Nobody ever did
But tonight
Tonight was different
As the she lay
On the floor gasping
For air

The towering figure looked
Down on her

Trembling with fear
She started crawling
And that was were it ended
A scream
Cut to short
To be living still

Who knew why he did it
But he did it

Now she
Lay on the floor
No more
But
In the coffin
Her mother built for her......

Star Babies

Particles of Nox,
reside upon reserved iniquity,
Banished from textured shores,
to serve as stellar light.

From birth they came,
to death they begun.

Helpless to oppose womb raiders,
they fought yet lost the fight.
Kingdom orbit was destiny,
to ablaze ebony skies.

Overturn The Moon

I once started to run,
then realized I was running in circles.
Pursued by ones own tail;
is an anguish none should know.

Plunging deep within thoughts,
I managed to recede the chase,
though god overturned the moon;
gently shining upon light...
Becoming back to where I began
seen by what I feared most...
I started running in circles,
as it's all I've ever known.

I watched cotton owls flutter,
being careful not the stop.
A symbol of god's wisdom,
Yet the sign of devil's smirk.
I ran until I collapsed,
Laying I tried to breathe,
Was it fire I would envision,
or bright light within the fog.

That day I learned a new trick,
Again I started to run,
yet this time not in circles but;
in the shape of tasteful hearts.

Beneath The Stars We Breathe Selfishly

I'd trim the strings of violins;
if I thought it would stop sorrow.
The world is a bitter place when;
stars have forsaken the sky.
Lilac impressions accumulate,
Whispering scents of famish.
Inner light forgive me,
I danced with the devil.

Selfish as the air we breath;
I imagined poverty.

Colors of the Wind

by NyellMoonlight

Your soul was given to me
with a cellophane
and an instruction manual.

Sweet petals of oxygen
died within glassy lungs.

Your soul was colored as the wind-
sepia constellations managed to grow
watered with woe,
dissecting warmth
of the nights shared...

... and after all these years
that bitter zephyr
still caresses my thoughts.

Category- Lost Love

You'd Never Start My Fire

by NyellMoonlight

Beseech tainted senses to start bleeding again
because I tasted death and brittle deities, already
fought with clouds formed to represent sentinels
somewhere behind eyelids of all those broken auras.

She took one life away tonight- Music flies, whispering
over fields soaked with liquefied, sapphire imagination.
I had it all within one lucid, cerulean second-
there's some shattered light hanged behind the window.

Epicenter of the divinity revolves around catastrophes
- you'd never start my fire, indeed,
yet- dabbled emotions spill honey disasters over thoughts;
Beseech my tainted senses, implore silent tears.

Category- Depression

Paint Me Blue

by NyellMoonlight

There are pieces of me you'd never see:
alabaster constellations
of orchids and farewells;
Pearly clouds unfold pregnant stories
within seaweed weakness.

Paint me blue-
now, you'll let me fall.

Reveries... all those flowers obscene,
bloom, scurrilous... immoral;
honey, I do love this,
this angelic obscurity of sacrilege.
Overshadowed chambers entrapped
our carnal sentiments.

Paint me blue-
now, you'll let me die.

Category- Emotional pain

Category:Lost Love
Title:Forgetting About You, Love
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Im killing the moment
by remembering you
If i cant forget now,
my future is doomed.

Saying you loved me,
I believed all your lies.
Never did I think
you would make me cry.

The words paralyzed,
but who is to blame?
Even the worlds darkness
couldnt hid my shame.

Now whats left for me?
Hes a w****, your gone
and all I ever know is
that my path is wrong.

So leave me bleeding,,
dying on the cold floor.
The pain of my past
will cripple me no more.

Category; Family Issues
Title: "A Family's Crime"
A Family's Crimeby ReBecca

Walking free
by a judges grant.
Three generations
of sickness run rampant.

Held down and choked.
Perpetrator masturbates.
One holds him down.
Another rapes.

Little boys lost.
Mommys worst fears.
Raped and sodomized.
Little boy tears.

Found in a trash bag.
On the side of the road.
Killed so a pervert
could shoot off his load.

Only six years old.
Innocent child. Sweet boy.
Some perverts
sexual toy.

Go for the death sentence.
Doesnt bring baby back.
Savagely raped
by a familys attack.

Mommy's empty arms.
Picturing her baby's pain.
His dying breath.
Calling her name...

In honor of Christopher Michael Barrios, 6 year old boy, raped, anally sodomized, choked to death and left in a trash bag on the side of the road.

ReBecca Sanchez

Wandering through this world alone

Wandering through this world alone
Dying on the wicked stone
No trace of emotion
Wicked hell is my devotion
The whispers they call onto me
To my unavoidable soul sea
To burn in the unrelenting fire of hell
Hear my plead, and hear my yell
Die alone with my pride
While everyone around my casket snide
I wander without love
The birds chirp words of pity up above

Wandering through this world alone
Not knowing where I am but the unknown
Dead and decayed as some would see
Walking in this cesspool up to the knee
Useless and hated for all eternity
Sick of all this modernity
Sadistic and depressed inside
Deprived of all my pride
Only to turn to Satan himself
To find the piece missing by myself
Cannot avoid my fate
Only to find the opening of Hells gate

Wandering through this world alone
Down into hell to find the Devils throne
Extending his finger toward the abyss of my heart
Getting ready to tear my body apart
This hell I have brought unto myself
My body is turning into a delph
There is no turning back from my sins
This torture feels like a billion pins
Hell is my new home to spend eternity

The black Zodiac (The Withered Lover) - Lost Love

Scared,battered,beaten and bruised.
in this world you've got nothing to lose.
you think you know what i feel.
last time i didn't leave a thing concealed.

i wish i could say we lived happily ever after
but she loved another and distance was a factor.
i gave her it all that's a true fact.
she left it shattered nothing intact.

looking at the past so many regrets
like a crow sitting upon his nest.
a man trying to adapt to the world around
to him it is the rest of the world that's confound.

silent desperation my friend, it sooths
love is nothing to have if you lose
love is a fairy tail not yet proved.
you couldn't walk a step; not one, in my shoe.

i go to sleep knowing she is with another
that is why they call me the withered lover.

© 2005 Shaun M.K

Can It Be?

The thought of you hurting me,
Doesn't leave my mind.
I'm afraid that you'll hurt me,
Just like you did before.
I keep thinking to myself,
"What am I doing wrong?"
All I'm trying to show you,
How much I truly care.
But maybe you dong wanna know,
Maybe you just want to play.
I wish you could tell me,
Exactly what you feel for me,
But I know that won't happen,
Since it seems that you're afraid.
Afraid of a little commitment,
Letting yourself love again.
Or maybe it can be,
That you don't want ME.
Maybe I'm just being paranoid,
Since I'm afraid to lose you.
I won't know for sure,
Until you tell what you feel.
'Till then I'll just write these words,
Where I have my true feelings.

.:CiiNDY:.
.:10-9-08:.

Like The Last petal On A Rose, I'll Die-Category-Lost Love

{Wilting...slowly dying..}

Heart that once burned with passion now left torn in fragments
Who'd have ever known that one person could feel so much pain
Possible lies spilling so easily from your now destructive lips
Who'd have known that all my sorrow does for you is entertain

{Once so pretty, full of life...now declining}

Each broken piece of heart slowly crumbling from within
Soul once whole and pure, now engulfed in such shocking flames
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust, debris now all that's left here
How could anguish be caused, why did we play so many games

{Yet another shard falls to pieces...}

Tarnished and agonizing memories seem to be all that's left
Of something that once seemed like it was meant to be, so pure
Emotions run deep, leaving a swirling catastrophic mess behind
Someone tell me, just how much more pain is left to endure?

{Last shattered piece falling slowly to the floor...}

Drowning, suffocating, mutely choking left with silent screams
Everything that was once so perfect now twisted, turned so awry
One person who used to leave me euphoric now causing the tears
Didn't you know that without your love, all that's left to do is die?

Forever, Never Goodbye-Category-Lost Love

{Forever...that's what you promised me}

Only now it seems forever is much shorter than originally thought
Because you're gone out of my life, and I'm left here all alone
Changing you're mind so constantly, never know just where I stand
And now I'm so desolate and empty, staring bleakly into the unknown

Staring so forlornly out the window, tears streaming down these cheeks
Grey stormy weather heading this way now matches how I feel inside
Can't bring even the smallest smile to these now lonely decaying lips
In a torrent of loneliness anguish and hurt is where I now reside

{Never...never can we be together again}

It's hurting so much as this realization slowly sinks into my mind
As memories flash through my head, destroying my entire soul
And so many friends have tried to be strong for me, to be there
They just don't realize that I'll never be able to be consoled

Because without your love, I'm slowly dying on the inside
It's knowing I had you and screwed it up that's tearing me apart
Haven't spoken to anyone in days, just sat still silently crying
Wishing I could change things, wishing that you didn't depart

{Goodbye...It's so hard to say}

You told me that moving on is probably what's best for both of us
So many reasons we can't be together, and you're probably right
Yet this heart is slowly breaking inside and nobody knows but me
Always I'm left feeling so lonely, hurt, ashamed and so contrite

Don't want to feel this pain any more, not strong enough to cope
One thing I want to do you wont let me, just want to make amends
And even though something that was once so perfect is now messed up
Can't help but hope that one day we might emerge from this as friends

{And deep down I know that wont happen...goodbye.}

Ana, You Win-Category-Emotional Pain

So...I guess it's harder to let you go than I originally thought
For no matter what I do, you're always whispering in my head
Constantly telling me I'm not good enough, never be pretty
Why do you insist on staying...can't you leave me alone instead?

Lost count of the times I've tried getting the hell away from you
Now I'm no longer sure I'm strong enough to keep you away
Never once did I think I'd fall for your alluring promises and lies
Only now can't let you go, for I've now been led to far astray

Hiding behind so many layers of clothes each and every day
My heartbeat becoming weaker with every tick of the clock
Spending hours of every single day spent just glaring at food
It's like the disgusting thing exists only to tease and mock

.....I Don't Know How Much Longer I Can Do This......

"Nothing taste as good as thin feels," constantly in my mind
Staring at all the pretty bodies, and all of the thinspiration
Standing on the scales every morning and night without fail
Every time I drop another pound, all I feel is complete elation

You remind me of all this every time I try to say goodbye
Determination quickly being overtaken with bleakness
Trying so hard to fight you and get my life together again
But you have the advantage, because you know my weakness

And now I'm feeling my resolve slipping a little further each day
Seems we're constantly arguing and screaming at each other
You've now become both my best friend and worst enemy
Pushing me away from my closet friends and even my mother

......I'm Not Strong Enough To Deal With This......

It's taking up to much energy to fight with you all the time
For that time could be better spent exercising all day long
I want your encouragement instead of hatred once again
Please don't hate me anymore...I'll try my hardest to be strong

I'll decline any offer of food, never let it pass or touch my lips
Running, sit ups, swimming will become something I do every day
Punish myself every time the numbers on the scales haven't changed
Promise to not let you down this time, you're the only one I'll obey

This time I wont complain, I'll just follow every rule without a word
Water will now become my every breakfast, lunch and dinner
Eventually I'll be beautiful and make us both so very proud
Each and every day my only goal will be to become even thinner

.....Ana, You Win......

Category: Family Issues

IF I WERE TO DIE TONIGHT

So tell me mother, if I were to die tonight
Would you regret yelling at me all those times?
Or would it be easier to see me die?
Would your tears be enough to mend what I feel inside?
And make me rise from the mire I am at?

Would you cry a tear, if I were to die tonight
Instead of loving words to soothe my broken heart
For I have lost the right to know who my father was
Yet you fed me with your lies and fake smiles
So tell me mother, if I were to die tonight

Would it give you sorrow, if I were to die tonight
Would it touch your heart and you would love me at last?
Would it make you look back and remember the times?
How every night I wanted to hug you tight?
What I got instead is your cold back

Now remember, if I were to die tonight
For my heart is weary and I am in deep sorrow
Resonance of your words hurt me every time
You wanted me to die even if I'm not supposed to
However, I want you to know

It would solve my problems, if I were to die tonight
No matter how much you may hate me
No matter how much you screwed my life
No matter how many scars you have left me
I would still die tonight, just to see your smile back

And for my contentment, please don't forget to smile...before you say goodbye...

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Category: Lost Love

I WONT GET OVER YOU

I loved you I treasured you
Never had I thought us parting
I adored you so dearly
I never wanted anyone
It was you I always dreamt bout
One sweet day you and I
Walking down that aisle

But as I was looking back
The words that had hit me hard
Everything I did for you
Was nothing but a trash
How dare you matched me
You just knew her so hardly

I love you still swear I do
But sooner or later I know
Like you Iâ??ll be with someone new
But before I go want you to know
Beneath the shining star in the dusk
Ill cry coz I wont get over you

Lonliness

Lone Heart

In quiet night, I sit alone
Reflecting true the life gone by
As heartaches come beneath the moon
Lost lonely teardrops from my eyes
No comfort seen or felt tonight
How pain within each single breath
Comes now in solace soul resides
Before the stars shows true regret

Hard words come closer silent still
The mind recalls each one with fear
Upon the night the moon does cry
Its lonely tune with heartfelt tears
Stark love of loss does truer come
As sure as hope has died in vain
As tears of love and loss collide
Then leaves the night to take the blame.

Where faith has wretched its lonely voice
Time ticks away each day with proof
Upon the brink of love we cry
Forgetting we are humble fools
Inside each star that shines above
We hold fast to the hope it seems
But love has left us all alone
Within the heart of faithless dreams.
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Emotional Pain

Dark Hollow Moon

Hence, come, to cry upon this hollow moon tonight
As Thy soul, in disenchantment, falls in tears
Take not Thy breath of comfort in a solitary light
Or strain against the stars that lie in fear

Perchance, the shadows hold inside your heart
A semblance of remorse for days so true
Forever a reminder of souls that fell apart
Reflecting in each tear that comes anew.

Come, now, in solace rage, Thy soul to break
A tender heartache falls with every breath
Upon this night, in distant silence, wake
From souls entombed and on the brink of death.

Thy wings have broke in battle, ragged scars
Black tears fall on a face so fair and pure
A witness to the soul, reflected faded stars
Remiss of all the pain to be endured.

Take heed, the heart that cries upon this night
Inside the mystic song, a haunting tune
To beacon from the depths and come alive
Beneath the darkened hollows of the moon.

The final votes are in. Thanks to all for the great poems.

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First Place - 15 Comments
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Title: Run by a Bipolar Disorder
Author: A Phine To Sour Skittles

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Second Place - 10 Comments
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Title: Ana, You Win
Author: xJenni Mariex

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Third Place - 5 Comments
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Title: Your Can't Hurt Me
Author: Bob Shank

Winners: Please PM a list of poems to me for judging; OR we can choose for you, whichever you prefer.

Congratz to all the winners..Xdd

Well done all, great poems.