there goes my virginity.

so im a virgin to this forum, since im usually happy, minus my runs it with eating issues, any way.
its been so weird the past week or so, i feel really down and depressed but i have noo idea why.
i have really bad self esteem, so bad that i didnt think it could get any worse but it seems that recently all i do is judge myself. i hardly ever laugh anymore, im just so blahh and i have no idea why, i saw my counsellor but she wasnt much help, she thinks its the weather :s
i just need to vent, before it gets to much and i break out in tears again.

Hey!
Its okay to vent out, I do it all the time. Also its okay to break into tears, its just a way to get your feelings out. All I can really say to do is talk to a friend that you trust and tell her/him how you are feeling. Do you write in a journal or anything like that? Make a list of things that might be making you depressed and sad. I'll give you an example in what I worte: My family at the time was bothering me and my grades in school were dropping.
Everyone's reasons are different though. so make a list of before, when you were happy and laughing and now, when you are depressed and not laughing. Ask yourself whats different between now and then.

Hope you feel better and if you need to vent out anymore well Im a good filter : )
Just send me a email through the site and Ill get back to you A.S.A.P

~Juls~

writes list;

Am alone

always will be

is worthless

will end up in a crappy job

family hates me, I hate them back

I'm ugly

I'm stupid

I can't seem to do anything right

I owe a crap load of money and have no job

I have to buy my own food, hence my debt

When I die I will be forgotten, just another tombstone that people will graffiti

I haven't seen any of my friends since mid August (kicked out of school, and I'm in so much trouble with the cops and mum I can't go outside much anymore) and I won't be able to see them until next August

There appears to be no point to life

My sister the only person in my family I acually like is moving out soon and then I have no one to talk to until August

I have no money for college (mum spent my money on a F'ing pool)

I have no future

This is a funny post...

And a pathetic one at that. But hey you get 9/10 for being pathetic.

I hope you were not talking to me....

Hels..

thanks i appreciate all the feedback!
for the few people who have nothing constructive to say: dont say anything! you may not be in a bad place, but others are. and if you have no compassion towards them, dont say anything.

thank you all.

I know exactly how you feel. I'm like that on and off. I have my days.

~Luvz~
~Angie~
xoxo

You want constructive crititism....

Ok!

You say that you can't laugh. Seeing as the world is dying each day, along with the sick perverted killings happening each day, along with the un-wavering truth that the world will come to an end in just a few thousand years. And everyone has his her own problems to deal with rather than dealing with what's important in the world. Yes, I can't see why you would not laugh.

Vent, but this is a place where you say what you think. And I think you need to check your priorities. And with your eating disorder. I can come to a fact that you are fat...Correct. Or you feel so. It shows how you precieve yourself, and how shallow you thinkl people are. People will like you for you not for what your body looks like.

There is my constructive critisism on what you just vented. Now please don't ask people to keep their mouth shut. Because you can't shut a person up, for what they think.

it wasnt my intention to shut you up, but you are harsh and cruel to the people who happen to be in a chatroom discusing how vulnerable they are, so have some compassion becuase the way you treat others is how youll be treated in return and right now you dont deserve any kind words.

Ofcourse I don't deserve Kind words, if I did deserve them I would say Kind things.

God!

I will say what I think. And that will not change.

And by everyone you mean who...Hels.

Reality Check Hels: Do not include everyone when you actually do not know them yourself. Secondly I can say whatever I want. That is what freedom of speech implies. Except when I say it, it's the truth....

And here is my constructive critism of you Hels: You have shown yourself as a pathetic poser, who seems to have a grudge on me because of what I say. Frankly I don't care if you do. But please do it quietly. I like my haters that way.

Lol...

This is fun..

This is the internet, and sure I may be a little scathing, but it is the truth. It's called observational truth.

And as they say "Truth hurts"

The weather...honestly i think that it's all in your head i mean if you look for the downfall of it all that's all your gonna see..sooner or later your gonna see the lighter side of things..and it'll be as right as rain..i can't say it's gonna be easy..cause it never is...i go into that stage every once in awhile..it's natural to judge yourself..everyone does it..and there's nothin wrong with it..your self esteem is something you can fix...and only YOU..people can give their 2 cents but you have to take it with a grain of salt..go do what you think is fun...it don't matter if your not happy then you gotta change something..whether its your diet or your exercise..your hours..there are TONS of factors...jus find somethin and change it up...anyway..hit me back..tell me how it works out..cause it'll work itsself out..hit me back...peace