I need ur input before i choose William

Well, you want to make up for all your crimes--turn yourself in. Otherwise, yeah, "break away." Make sure to listen to Kelly Clarkson while you're doing so o.O Jp, jp...but seriously, you're wasting your life. Move somewhere new and get a clean start.

May I ask...did you steal the money you have?

If you stay you and all you love are in danger but if you leave and try to make a clean start then you will always have the horrors of your past life in the back of your mind.

the choice is yours i cannot make it for you.

I would think so. but do not expect to be rid of your nightmares.

I guess i'll lead the debate. (man it always ends up me leading debates or decision making)

I say get out of there. You've already established and recognized that it's not a healthy environment. Any place other than there would be better.

You can either stay where you are and lose everything slowly and painfully, losing your sanity included.

Or
You can start all over. Be whoever you WANT to be, try to make a clean break from the horrors you've known. You can have freedom and try all over again. You can heal.

(In my life I've had to make a decision of staying in a terrible environment or moving somewhere where the only people I knew were my dad and step mom, and that decision worked out well for me. I made new friends, found a new love, and am currently sorting out my depression with a psychologist and am taking Prozac. Things are FINALLY working out well for me. All because I made the decision to take control over my life. I think you should do it too)

The only things that I would find important in that place are the people you love. First, find a way to get you and your girl outa there. Help your other family save up to move out. Just get them out, and get a clean start. But leaving by yourself would be a horrible mistake. I'm sure the people you'd be leaving would be hurt tremendously. Have you talked it over with them?

I hope this is good enough input. Best of wishes. I'll probably drop by here again.

You know my position, i only lend a helping hand

William. I can't tell if you are being serious or not, given that I don't know you, and this is a website where words, though powerful in of themselves, are deceptive.

I am curious why you would need the support of people on a poetry site my friend?

I say this not to be cruel, but only because you seem like a very intelligent person, and I've always found, being rather smart myself on occasion, that whenever I ask for advice, I'm really only looking for my own wisdom to be backed up by other people.

What I mean is that I believe you know both what you should do, and what you will do, whether those two things be the same I do not know.

Good luck my friend, the world is a small place, but large enough for you to have many spaces in it all to yourself.

I know that you wanna keep your promises but if u wanna stay safe i would get away....start a new life.

like i have read from mos tof the people above...only you can make that decision though.

is there anyway that mabe u coud take ur love with u? maybe she could go too...if that wouldn't bring back to many old memories....

Hey william .. .well i know you and all so im going to say get away! your better than that! ur better than ur past! the fact that u have over come(or is it came?) so much proves that u deserve a new start! your a great guy! sometimes you have to look out for yourself! =]

I have lived a violent life myself William and have seen and done things I'm not proud of. No matter what you do or what you say, you'll never get ahead in a place so corrupt with violence/crime. I moved away from all the gangs and street life and started over fresh. Sometimes thats all we need is a clean break, a fresh start to do something meaningful with our lives. If you stay living the life you live now, you either won't be around to protect your loved ones, or you won't have any loved ones to protect. You in your heart know what needs to be done to ensure the safety of the people you care for the most. At the end of the day thats all a person really is, a protector. Protector of their kids and there family, a protector of people who will one day die. Get out while you still can, you have no other choices.

Kevin is a hottie.