Sorry not again

Never thought you would be back;
Felt like you were gone for good;
So long my hurt has continued to stack;
But it seems like I`m misunderstood.

Yet I can`t believe how its changed;
All your life seems to be faded;
No longer you are able to smile;
No longer you wish to be alive;

It feels like it`s all my fault;
That you are now so full of doubt;
No longer you want me close;
No longer you care what i propose.

You say its okay;
You say it doesn`t matter;
That on the inside you just die;
That now your heart did shatter.

You can`t even imagine how much I hate;
This damned and bloodstained fate;
How much it really does hurt;
To see how much your feelings distort.

All because I wasn`t strong enough;
Because I couldn`t keep my mouth shut;
Because I wasn`t tough;
Because I didn`t hide my every cut.

I just made you sad;
It just became bad;
I don`t deserve to be alright;
I don`t want to see any light.

It`s better if you don`t know I cut;
So now I will keep my mouth shut;
It`s better that you don`t know I`m crying;
Even if it feels like i`m dying.

Just try to be safe;
Don`t ruin your life;
I will do it instead;
No matter where it may lead.

And let me say: "I`m sorry";
But please, don`t worry;
I`m just a part of your story;
Just another accessory...