Anymore

I feel like I am connecting with your pieces more and more everytime I read them.

This is a wonderful piece though filled with sadness and maybe a hint of regret and loss.

Chels you are a great poet!

x

Well, my heart is no more. It has had enough for the day... this has just hit home too hard.

As everyone else state, the anymore at the end of each stanza is perfect. Who knew that simple word would be so powerful?

"I cry at your very happiness
No, not because of jealousy,
because I no longer share it with you
Yes, this might have come out blunt,
but I found no point in sugar coating
when you lack to coat me in anything sweet
anymore."
^It's hard to see someone you love be happy without you... some people say it's bittersweet, that they are happy that they are happy... but yet it's miserable because it's without you. I guess I'm selfish, I am not happy for them lol. I'm the one secretly wishing whatever is making them happy to just leave so they can realize that "I" was the only thing that ever made them truly happy lol. I don't know if that makes sense... but I just rambled about it. Moving on...

"I don't value your friendship,
yet, you are the only person
worth writing about these days
I'm lost in a field of unhealthy
aggravation and mental breakdowns
This ink is the only fertilizer
that helps clear my mind,
and these pages are the only
thing that keeps us connected
anymore."
^We punish ourselves sometimes, I think. We just keep repeating our past memories and it just draws us into breakdowns and depression. I love how you said writing is the only thing that keeps you connected... you don't communicate any more, yet you secretly do. </3

"I try and ready my spirit for
any type of reconciliation,
but after the 5th fight and
the 1st spiteful word,
I just don't think it's fixable
anymore."
^So true... there can only be so much we can handle. Fighting constantly and then when the spiteful words start flying... yeah, no matter how many "I'm sorry's" you hear... nothing will ever erase those words from your mind. Been there, done that.

A beautiful, heartbreaking piece that I just fell in love with... and it's going straight into my favs!

Chelsey this piece struck me..it got to me so much, made me sigh and suffer with you.

I do not know what to say, but that this poem is beautiful; as sad as it may be, but it is beautiful..I wish you wouldn't have to feel this so that you'd come up with these writes.

Aww, this is so sad. It is so sad when relationships change and you sometimes wish they could go back to how they started off.
I loves the opening and how you stated you missed sharing the happiness with them.

I really related to the part when you described writing about this person although you try to deny their meaning to you. I do this often and then question myself about what they mean to me since I still end up writing about them.

Good ending, there comes a point when you have to ask yourself if you can ever see this being fixed and if it is indeed worth the work. Sometimes the effort only comes from one side - this never works.
I really liked this one. x

I cry at your very happiness
No, not because of jealousy,
because I no longer share it with you

Wow chesley , I really love this opening, it just is so blunt like you said, so very true, I know the feeling as well, when someone is happy without you and you feel guilty for not liking it, or being jealoud. . . you just wish you were apart of it. I, too, liked the use of anymore and liked that you used it as your title. You've written a very heartbreaking poem here, its very sad when you cannot mend a relationship but you must move on for there is nothing else you can do when it is unfixable :(

Excellent write :)) 5/5