I've always heard of the term "daddy's girl"
but I never identified with it.
It's related to a special bond between
a loving father and his sweet daughter,
but this relationship is an enigma to me.
Daddy spent most of his time at work,
earning a living to ensure my future.
I can't thank him enough for this,
but something always felt
Mama did everything for me;
she taught me how to cook,
how to sew, and how to live.
She is my number one supporter;
she raised me to be a woman.
I studied hard and lived in my books
to make my parents proud and happy.
I needed to prove my knowledge
and show their money was well-spent.
Daddy - an intelligent and ambitious man
who jetsetted his way to the top,
and inspired his children to study.
He is a hero in my nation's eyes,
and was my hero at some point.
I was blind until I finally opened my eyes.
One day - I overheard Mama's distress,
her cries were invisible yet I felt them.
Her days were busy but her nights were sleepless,
and I could see the crinkles beside her mouth
were from the constant fake smiles she'd plaster.
I'll never forget the day I learned the truth;
I was absorbed in a whirlwind of emotions,
and I lost control of the family I thought I had.
I was unprepared for the iceberg that hit.
I watched Mama melt and drown in heartbreak,
while his heart remained frozen and colder than ice.
Everything has changed, yet it's all the same.
Mama still slaves herself to keep him happy,
while he shrugs and responds ungratefully.
I stand by my siblings as Mama's shield,
while she prays to God for a solution.
And here I am, after a while (And I will reply to your PM after I've finished here :) )
Okay..your opening is what teared me up the most. I can relate to this so well..hearing the term daddy's girl yet never relating to it. I have friends that DO relate to it and I admit sometimes I get jealous of this. And these lines hit my heart HARD.
"but this relationship is an enigma to me."
This is so sad but again so relateable (For me, anyway) It's something I have always wanted yet never recieved..and the way you phrase these lines...well, it's like you could see into my mind.
The way you mention how you tried to be perfect them...what your mother taught you, how you spent all your time studying, is heartbreaking. To me, this comes across as though you tried your best and yet somehow, it was just never good enough.
"and was my hero at some point.
I was blind until I finally opened my eyes."
This. This this this. OH MY. Isn't somebody -always- our hero until we finally open our eyes and become aware of the flaws that we fought so hard to see? It's just heartbreaking that the person you are referring to here is somebody that is MEANT to be your hero.
Your next stanzas..they make me think of an affair? Perhaps because from my interpretation they are still together and yet your mother is so sad. I don't know if I am anywhere near the mark here but again...devestating. Too often parents don't realize what effect their actions have on their children.
"I am not and will never be a Daddy's girl. "
This is, hands down, my favourite line. I can understand and relate to this COMPLETELY. I may have wanted it..but no longer and even if I did, I know I would never get it. And yoiur word usage here makes me think that you no longer want it either.
This is simply heartbreaking and so emotional, but beautifully penned!
5 years ago
Freakin awesome pinks, seriously what you put into this piece was outstanding ....im not good with dad poems, i lost mine at 13 and find them hard to read but this made keep going, i hope you get to address things. This write really touched me.....thankyou for sharing xx
Wow!!! You poured out your whole feelings here. The good and bad moments. A lot of us can relate to this, but to me with a touch of difference to it. In all marriages i believe a time comes due to some unforseen pressure and irrelevant mood triggers. Parents go through a change, a trying time. Interactivity and affection will take its toil on them. Making life unbearable and putting the family in total imbalance.
Some are minor problems, which are caused by demands from work, family commitments and needs, and mood imbalances. In which they can be sorted out without too much hassle. However, the major ones cause heartbreak and possibly separation or divorces. I hope this is just a minor fuss that can be sorted in due time.
And do get time to talk to your Dad. Its hard even without problems to convey your thoughts to your father unless there's a special close bond. Mothers are mostly the ones that are there for us all the times. When you talk to him, you'll feel relieved and happy you did so. You can never tell, you might change the course of events and most importantly, he got your message. All shall be fine, Gods willing.
Well penned dear..