First Time

I'll never forget the day we met,
That cold winters night, the scene was set.
We spoke only few words in passing by,
Each night ended with a simple "Good bye."

Day by day, time went and came,
Each moment all feeling like the same.
Till that one very special night,
I did what I did, what I felt was right.

I took a chance and broke my shell,
My lustful kisses should have sent me to Hell.
I laid there in bed, curled up with you,
Trying to make sense of what to do.

Since that night my minds began to run,
Over and over, sometimes till I see the sun.
All I could do was think of you,
Begging that night was really true.

Each night we spent together,
Just kept getting better and better.
I opened up and let down my guard,
My attachment, I tried to fight so very hard.

I ended it once, but that didn't last.
Seems like that was merely a time in the past.
I felt something I hadn't felt in a while.
Your warming touch brought such a smile.

My lust turned into something so much more,
Grew to something, of what, I wasn't too sure.
We would share so many hugs and a kiss,
Something, I know, I will always miss.

I want to hold you all through the night,
For my love for you, as strong as my will and might.
I want you to know I will always care,
To show you I will always be there...

For you when you are down or sad,
For you when you are happy and so glad,
I want to be there and help you,
Just tell me what it is that I must do.

Each time I see you, that beautiful gaze,
Leaves me standing here in a drunken daze.
It feels as if time is engulfed in a frost,
Never again shall I feel at all lost.

As I lay here watching you read this,
All I can do is think of those nights of bliss.
Your lips so soft; hands ever so sweet to the touch.
God, how I will miss this so very much.

You mean the world to me,
I wish that you could only see...
How happy I am when I'm with you,
I know that this can't be true.

I know the decision I've asked you to make,
I'm sure I know the answer and what's at stake.
You friendship to me will always be there,
I will always,... always care.

I don't want to give up, but I know it's right,
I will always have the urge to try and fight.
I know just how this story will end,
Know this, my heart will mend.

Now at this poems final lines,
I hope you can see the feeling behind these rhymes.
There are only one more line left for me to say,
I wish I could hold you till tomorrow's day.