I Want to Let You In

I know I told you to stay away, that you hurt me with each touch,
And I did not lie when I said the very sight of you breaks my heart,
But I die a little more when I push you away; I can only bear so much
But my soul threatens to shatter whenever I set you apart.
I vowed to myself that I would never love you, never miss you, again
And yet, as I saw you crying there on that granite bench where I first fell in love with you,
I could do nothing but cave as you asked a hug from me... It burned me to no end
As my heart beat harder than it has ever before since you walked away.
Your apologies burned my eyes as your tears rained
While you were in my arms, never have I felt that much strength
I felt so weak as you cried; as I told you, I never wanted you to leave...
Did you whisper the truth, that you are sorry that you had? Are you just playing with whatever is left of me?
I said I love you, and I swear I still do,
But understand that I am hesitant to let you in again
Do you see the pain that lives in my eyes, all because of the way I felt for you?
But, faded moon, I do so horribly miss you... I wish to let you in...