With Him

by Chelsey   Apr 27, 2013


This is wrong.

What am I doing?

Lemon kaze, cranberry and vodka,
pour me more, music roars, I can't control
this buzz.

I'm that girl. Skirt rising high, flirting with
her eyes, unable to control her laughter.
This isn't the real me.

As flashing lights accentuate my features,
as speakers ring my ears, my mind stares
to the ceiling and even now, even through this
drunkenness... I think of you.

I visualize your flawless complexion and think,
if it was near mine, these fingers would not
shake, this blood would not be intoxicated.
The only 'wasted' that would come about is
time... wasting as we stare.

You'd smile crookedly and I'd fall in love
with your grin. Moments like now, where
I can hardly stand sober, would die
with other sins I'd give up for you.

Yet, here I am...in his arms.
Someone who doesn't matter, someone
I would never go home to.

Someone who doesn't come close to
measuring up to you.

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  • 10 years ago

    by Jenni Marie

    Judging comment:

    "Love the first few lines as I think we can all relate or have been able to relate at one point or another. Who doesn't turn to the less favourable coping mechanisms when someone we love leaves us? "The only 'wasted' that would come about is time... wasting as we stare." I find this line to be incredibly bittersweet and it allows me to reminisice of thouse first days with a loved one when you can't get enough of each other and want to spend every second with them, even if you're not actually doing anything important. I also like the subtle repetition here. Last two verses are what moved me the most. We try so hard, so often, to pretend we have moved on when we are far from doing so and that is captured perfectly here-that love lingers even if you're attempting your best to pretend that it doesn't. Lovely work. "

  • 10 years ago

    by The Poet Behind The Poems

    My bad :)

  • 10 years ago

    by The Poet Behind The Poems

    I would normally crack a joke ...

    But for once I won't :)

    This was truly amazing I loved the scene
    You have set her , I got this as someone
    Who has lost someone and in a drinker state
    She dives into the arms of another man,
    For comfort??? To feel loved!???

    There is so many reasons but sometimes
    Feeling as tho your heart is fixed is better then
    Feeling the pain of braking ( in some people's eyes)

    A simple piece compared to your others
    But this packs a punch .

    Awesome

    ( for a blonde ) :p

  • 10 years ago

    by Hannah Lizette

    Damn.

    I'm speechless because I can relate so well. Being that girl... the girl who drinks and flirts with other guys just to get her mind off of the one who is the only one who matters.

    Alcohol can be a release at times, but usually one leads to seven, and then a good night turns to a bad one.

    I don't know if this is a real situation or just one of those writes that is inspired by someone/something else... but it touched me... I love the images you portrayed, the girl flirting with her eyes... and then maybe flashbacks of staring into his eyes while feeling the buzz... wishing it was him that she was with. All hits home for me.

    Fantastic write!

  • 10 years ago

    by Hannah Lizette

    Damn.

    I'm speechless because I can relate so well. Being that girl... the girl who drinks and flirts with other guys just to get her mind off of the one who is the only one who matters.

    Alcohol can be a release at times, but usually one leads to seven, and then a good night turns to a bad one.

    I don't know if this is a real situation or just one of those writes that is inspired by someone/something else... but it touched me... I love the images you portrayed, the girl flirting with her eyes... and then maybe flashbacks of staring into his eyes while feeling the buzz... wishing it was him that she was with. All hits home for me.

    Fantastic write!

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