Finding Myself

After years or climbing I had reached my peak,
I could smile with my whole being,
See the Suns rays through growing clouds ,
Support others who had hit the ground,

So high up I thought id stick around,
I'd found a sort of peace with my hurts,
I found a way to open myself to new things,
Getting out of the house and engaging in a normal life.

I was doing so well,
I tried to find friends I'd lost in my self imposed solitude,
To find they had given up waiting,
Having moved on to happier things.

I don't know how to reach out anymore,
I don't think I can really connect with anyone,
I am scared to make connections fearing I'll let anyone down,
Hopefully these thoughts lessen and I can grow.

The view from so far up is breathtaking,
To stand on the edge and look below,
There would be a price to pay falling from this height,
So I try to keep my distance to avoid any accidents.

I have one love I hold onto with both hands,
He has helped me get to where I am,
You are the one that holds my heart, it is heavy and broken but it's a start,
One day I hope to pay him back for all he has done ,
We are slowly mending the cracks and forming a bond that will withstand any test that comes our way.