I've spent years shutting people who claimed to care about me out
Knowing that letting anyone get close to me could result in getting hurt.
And at the same time I spent years wondering why everyone ended up leaving me to fend for myself;
Scared and lost in the jumbled thoughts and absolutely insane fears of
My own mind.
But then you come around,
All adorable and whatnot
And I can't seem to get you out of my mind.
You can call it falling for you,
Or you can call it desperately trying not to fall for you;
Which I am failing at miserably.
I don't want to put up my walls and shut you out.
For the first time in what feels like forever,
I want you to break down my walls
And tell me that I will be ok.
Because it seems that when my world comes crashing down
And nobody else seems to notice,
You're always there to break my fall;
And I'm afraid I'm starting to need those little moments of laughing or dancing to random songs
Or buying six baskets of wings and not eating them,
Because we are too focused on talking to each other that we forget how hungry we were in the first place.
I don't ever want you to go anywhere;
I need you to stay right here.
And when my walls come crashing down,
Please please please..
Break my fall.
This is such a heartfelt and amazing write! Beautifully written and put together and so honest and raw. I enjoyed reading! It is very sweet and I wish you all the best with this new person in your life :) I hope they will treat you right and make breaking down those walls a life changing process in every positive way possible! It is nerve-wracking to meet someone who can do this to you, and can be really scary and exhilarating all at the same time- and a lot of the time, they can be totally worth it. Much love to you, hon, and good luck with everything :)
It's scary when you are ready to open yourself up to another, especially because of past hurts. It's like leaping off a cliff and free falling. As scary as it is it's very important to take those steps. It will help you grow and experience so much more. I'm rooting for you! Hugs-