Stick in The Mud

by -] Nobody [-   Jun 10, 2018


Often times I find myself stuck, like a stick in the mud
And the harder that I fight it, the deeper that hole is dug
I can squirm, I can scream, I can nearly drown in my dreams
But I've got a thousand yard stare, and it doesn't mean a thing

Setting goals is the equivalent of setting myself up for failure
It's things I cannot reach, and people that cannot hear you
Expected to function and succeed in life like I never had a care
I sit in a hole and dream of a place, but I know I cannot be there

Each time I bring myself to fight, the situation gets more dire
Full of anger and resentment, I feel so helpless and so tired
But I scratch, and I claw, from a place that eyes cannot see
And I slowly sink inside, like a stick that can never break free

I seek help, and I try to explain to people that I'm not lazy
That my failures from the outside only illuminate my crazy
I am a reflection of what I have seen, felt, or touched
And I'm sorry that some of you look at me and don't see very much

I've been doing the best I can to survive and come up with a plan
But I keep failing to transform myself from a tragedy into a successful man
And though I am diagnosed with major depression, insomnia, and anxiety
I get no help, because I'm just a druggie looking for pills to society

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  • 4 months ago

    by deeplydesturbed

    Dam..
    The ending

    "And though I am diagnosed with major depression, insomnia, and anxiety
    I get no help, because I'm just a druggie looking for pills to society"

    Dammm... Holy... f...

    ya know.. this is sooo true. We have all been here.. im sorry society is so messed up mate.. truely..

  • 4 months ago

    by Ren

    I'm in tears. This poem is everything to me right now. You did a phenomenal job with expressing these hard emotions so clearly, and your rhyming is spot on! I'm glad to see this nominated, and I am at a loss for more words to say. But I will leave you with a (<3) love button. Sending so much peace and love and healing to you. I hope it finds you well.

    • 4 months ago

      by -] Nobody [-

      Thank you Ren and I'm glad that you enjoyed it, but I'm also sorry to hear that you related to it. I get to see a counselor and a psychiatrist on the 22nd (4 more days!), if they could just fix me, you guys wouldn't have to hear from me anymore! :) Thank you again though and may you find peace and plenty of healing for yourself aswell lady

  • 4 months ago

    by Em (marmite)

    Nominated that's all

  • 4 months ago

    by .k.u.s.h.q.u.e.e.n.c.j.

    I honestly can't explain how relatable this is & how absolutely brilliant this peice is.

    The metaphors were spot in. The imagery and the feels.. I mean, there's so much being said in this peice.

    My absolute favorite part..

    "I am a reflection of what I have seen, felt, or touched
    And I'm sorry that some of you look at me and don't see very much"

    Those lines really struck me. I'm adding this to my favs.

    Keep writing, Take care (:

    • 4 months ago

      by -] Nobody [-

      Thank you for the kind words queen.

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