The Little Lost Angel

I Never Thought Id Be The Girl
The One I Tried So Hard Not To Be
Those Were Bella's Last Words She Said
The Last Time She Ever Spoke To Me

And As I Put Pen To Paper
I Remember That Broken Soul
And I Tell Her Unspoken Story
Finally The Lies Will Unfold

I Went To School With Bella
From The Start Of Scary Year Eight
She Never Knew Of Enemies
Everyone Could Call Her A Loyal Mate

So We Started School Together
More Scared Then We Both Led On
We Thought We'd See These Years Through
But Now I See I Was So Very Wrong

Bella Was A Pretty Little Thing
With A Timid Yet Bright Smile
Slender With Her Chocolate Brown Hair
And A Sort Of Personal Style

We Both Hung With The Cool Crowd
With Just Happens To Be Bad News
She Just Wanted To Be Liked By People
So This Is The Group You'd Choose

But As More Time Wore On
And We Entered Big Year Nine
I Knew Things Were Getting Bad
I Was Losing That Friend Of Mine

She Didn't Laugh Much Anymore
Smoked More Than She'd Smile
Still Hung with The Popular Group
And Then The Day Came She Met Kyle

He Didn't Go To Our School
And He Happened To Be Seventeen
He Made Money And Lived Alone
To Her He Was The Bad Boy Of Her Dreams

So Soon They Started Dating
And She Hung With Kids I Didn't Know
She Met The Bad News Of The Neighborhood
And Then My Old Happy Bella started To Go

She Didn't Come To School Much Anymore
Partied The Weekends Away
When Id Ask Her How She Was Doing
She'd Always Answer Me OK

She Had Four Brothers
Who She Ignored Most of The Time
She Whodunit Look At Her Mother
She Wasn't That Bella Of Mine

One day She Came To School
Which Was A Pretty Rare Thing
with Marks Upon Her Face
And Not Wearing Kyle's Promise Ring

I Asked Her Were The Bruises Came From
And She Suddenly Started To Cry
She Wouldn't Tell Me Were They Came From
But Said She'd Broken Up With Her Guy

Over The Next Few Days
She Buckled Down At School
Kyle Seemed To Not Matter Much
How Could I Be Such A Fool

When School got Out On Friday
She Said She Was Going Out
She Said Kyle's Best friend Was Buying Drinks
And He Said He'd Cheer Her Up And Shout

She'd Known Him As Long As Kyle
And He'd Seemed To Take Her Side
She Was Still Crying Over Kyle
No Matter How Much She Would Deny

And As We Were Parting Ways
This Is What She Said To Me
I Never Thought Id Be The Girl
The One I Tried So Hard Not To Be

And Then We Parted On Those Words
And That Was The Last She Ever Said
I Never Saw Her Alive Again After That Day
Those words Still Fill me With Dread

She Went Out With Kyle's Friend That Night
And He Raped Her In That Park
The Place She First Kissed Kyle
And That Was End Of Bella's Spark

She Went Home After He Did It
And Said Pr-ares Next To Her Bed
Left No Word Or Any Letter
And In The Morning She Was Dead

I Spoke At Her Funeral
A Week After The Event
I Said What She Would Of Wanted
The Pain She Couldn't Vent

I Said That She Loved Kyle
Even If He Hit Sometimes
I Said She Loved Her Poetry
So Much Inner War Behind Those Rhymes

I Repeated What Her Mother Told Me
That Her Last Night On Earth She'd Encountered Rape
I Reminded All Her Friends And Family
About The Bella Who Gave And Would Never Take

I Said That She Made Mistakes
And Partied And Drank Way Too Much
I Said Her Last Few Days On Earth
Showed Me My Bella Was Still In touch

And Before The Service Was Over
I Had A Last Message From me
Bella Was Broken Yet Still An Angel
Pure Inside Just Like She'll Always Be

I Said She Thought She Was The Girl
The Person She Never Wanted To Be
And Before I Stepped Off The Podium
I Whispered " You'll Always Be That Happy Little Angel To Me"

I Didn't Lose Anyone Like This..But I Feel That I Lost Me In That Way,...One day I Became Someone I Hated..Someone I Despised..And Every time I Look Into That Mirror..I See My Enemy...Thanks..Sorry I haven't Posted Lately..Haven't Been Writing :( My Story..What A Pathetic Excuse For Gods Air