The Living Cell

Hiding in a corner
Trying to sink into the wall
Trying not to cry with fear
When my name he does call.
Be as silent as possible
Dare not to move nor breathe
Hoping against hope
That he will give up and leave.

But this will never happen
He will not walk out that door
Not before he's completed the ritual
And someone lies bleeding on the floor.
The house remains silent...
Who will it be tonight?
Who will be his victim
Who shall have to fight?

He is getting angry now
As he climbs up the stairs
No way to escape his wrath
Nowhere to go, no-one who cares.

Can hear him breathing outside the door,
He's pacing to and fro
Deciding upon who
For his punishment to bestow.
He stops outside the room
My blood turns to ice
I must have made a mistake today
And now I must pay the price.

Shaking now
I push against the wall.
I dare not breathe
As my name he does call.
As the door begins to open
I know what is to come,
But will take the punishment
And being called scum
As I know I deserve it
Why else would it occur?
The next few minuets
Become a constant blur.

He slams the door as he leaves
Not to return until the early morn
It has been this way
Ever since we were born.
Still I dare not move
From this corner I have claimed
Will lie there crying,
Shaking and maimed.

More bruises to make excuses for
More lies and deception to those around,
Cannot tell the truth
As violent he cannot be renowned.

I finally find the strength to move
To leave to corner where I hide.
Sometimes I just wish
That with the beating I had died.
Look at the fresh wounds
And hide them best I can
In case anyone enquires
Think of an excuse plan.

Leave my room
And try to get on with life,
Knowing that today
I will have to turn to the knife.
Feeling guilty for all I do
Trying to be better, be all I should,
Follow all the rules,
Try to be good.

Knowing I am not good enough
And that these punishments shall aid,
Wanting to say sorry for all I am
For not being good enough, for turning to the blade.
But father says the beatings shall save me
Remove the evil and deliver us from hell
That until we are cured
We shall remain in this living cell.