My mom the drug adict (my past life)

As i lay in bed dreaming of my past
i tremble with fear and tears stream down my face. i hate you now! i sit up and wipe away my tears but all those years i remember more and more when i close my eyes. it scared to see my mother almost die in the hands of a man i hardly knew. Steve. everything that happened is gone but I'll never forget it. i never want to forget it. the screaming the yelling the glass breaking blood dripping onto the floor. I'll have to clean it up later. i rock in the corner with my knees pressed to my chest. i squeeze my eyes shut please give it a rest. my mother yells he yells back i sit in my room and see it all through the little crack. your face pained my face wet from tears. I'm only a little girl by only a few years. how can you hit her, how can you scream? you say its love. how can it be love? i hate the yelling i scream myself to sleep to drown out the noise that creeps. i used to cut. i wanted to die. the dreams of my past life always with me. now as i look back i don't ever want to fall in love. i don't want to end up like you mom.