It's the way you look at me
When nobody else is around...

I tried to stand tall; I tried to be brave
No one heard me; no one knew what I craved...

Here you go
With your charming words and smiling lies...

And I still have nightmares
About those days...

You show me the way to your office
We sit down in our usual chairs...

The music's playing again and I'm shaking
As I sit down in the shadows to write...

- Written earlier this year
The walls are white, reflecting the shadows...

Waking to the sound of machines
Bleeps echo through my head...

Tears and nightmares are all I have now
To remind me of that day...

7th jan
They tell me there's still hope...

22nd january
Sitting here waiting, debating...

Tears came sliding down my face
As I sat alone in the cold...