I Hate being Me...

by No1ButMe Aka Sierra

A life full of hate

Not wanting to be me

If only life could be better

If only it could be

I wasn't meant for happiness

Not even a little bit

So I sit here thinking

I don't deserve shit

Don't tell me different

I won't believe you

If only you could see

If only you knew

How I hate it so much

My life full of strife

My tainted skin

Where I cut with a knife

Don't tell me I'm pretty

Don't tell me I'm sane

I don't deserve a compliment

I don't even deserve my name

I deserve to cry

And I deserve to hate myself

I try to act like It's all OK

That I don't need the help

I smile and I laugh

Put on a good show

But I regret all the things

That you don't know

I deserve to be alone

And rot in my pain

I don't deserve to be happy

I deserve to be insane

I hate being like this

But I think it's true

At least know this

I really do love you

I hate living this life

If only you could see

I hate being this way

But even more I hate being me!

 

Submission date : 2007-03-19
Last edit : 2011-12-21

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deedee at 2007-03-19

That was how i falt at one point in my life but i moved on.

~forgotten~mistake~ ( F P C D ) at 2007-03-19

Hey, you dont deserve that hunni, im here if you want to talk, this poem is excellent keep writing xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Richard Roque ( P C ) at 2011-12-20

You are so much more. You are a good person. You make the world a better place. You are my friend and I care deeply for you.

Richard Roque ( P C ) at 2011-12-20

You are so much more. You are a good person. You make the world a better place. You are my friend and I care deeply for you.

Richard Roque ( P C ) at 2013-03-31

I feel this way because you threw me away. You were once were I am and you do not remember. Do not throw me away because of people or their lies. You once cared for me and understood me and then you changed, do not forget where you came from and understand how I am feeling and how much you had to endure. I really do love you. Wish you could see it. i am a real and true friend.