Misunderstood Teen

I'm always here
without a doubt
that it's out there
and it wants me to shout
it wants me to cry
to be covered by my fears
i just want to die
to let go of my tears
my heart races
with the hate
of those places
that'll bring my fate
why is life hard
always in the way
why does it guard
my heart in the day
why am i alone
crying Crystal tears
always at home
releasing my fears
my soul is tormented
i now need to shout
my ways are demented
i need to get out
out of this hell
which they call my life
i want to say farewell
with my lovely knife
i try and try
to get myself dead
and others wonder why
is it something I've read
i stare at my silver moon
knowing what i want
that I'll soon
be the one they taunt
lonely and scared
wishing i had won
knowing no one cared
if i was done
done with life
with my sorrow and pain
should i use that knife
or drown in the rain
should i write my good-byes
or let them figure it out
should i tell them why
or let them sit and pout
I'll wait until dark
to fully decide
but tearing my heart apart
is helping inside
so taunt or tease me
it'll help my choice
it's my key
to death's voice
never to see the living world
as a lonely and misunderstood teen
or even a little girl
who couldn't have seen
what life holds
to many it's a treat
it's like gold
but i wanted to meet
the place called hell
a place for me to cry
and bid life farewell
because now i have died.