Faithless Undone

Is he still listening to me??
Or am I just staring at the cieling?
My whole life is about your existance...
Every plan is baout what you have asked.
Now doubts are eroding at my wall of faith,
When things begin to not go my way.
Without suffering there would be no compassion.
Thats what I have to get through this.
But my life has no compassion, or understanding.
No meaning.
Anymore.