Alone in this darkened room

Sitting alone in this darkened room
Hell beckoning me with its deadly props
Sorrow plaguing my mind
Like a swarm of locusts to crops

The feeling of loneliness
So constant in my life
Nobody to hold, to love, or hug
One slit with the taunting knife

To end my life and my pain
To go straight to hell...yet again
To go see Lucifer leader of the dead
Or is Lucifer just me, the evil in my head

As i lie there rotting underground
Nobody would care or even cry
They would all be rejoicing my death
Never once saying goodbye

Because as I'm sitting here alone
In this darkened room
Suicidal tendencies going through my mind
Nobody here to help, nobody to call

Will I end it right now
One slit across the wrist
Will there be somebody to save me
To love and hold...or will I just fall