In the middle of the end

Since you have left my side,
I have fallen and can't recover.
Strength can't pick me up and
you don't love me, is what I discovered.

Everything that made me feel so safe before,
now just seems like it has disappeared.
As my stability was shattering around me,
all the things I feared were than revealed.

Danger now has to watch its back, afraid
of what may be lurking around the corner.
The people I have grown up with,
now to me seem like foreigners.

Fear makes me do the impossible,
and greed is what makes me give.
Hope gives me nothing to believe in,
and death now decides to let people live.

The desire in my heart, doesn't
have me chasing a single thing.
And the peacefulness that surrounds
me, is leaving an unbearable sting.

Guilt permits me to preform the same crime,
and my contentment has me wishing for more.
My stubbornness has me giving in, and my
anger has you being the only one I adore.

Being abandoned has me feeling surrounded by love,
and this boldness is causing me to pull back.
The agitation from this world helps me smile, and
fulfillment makes me feel there is something I lack.

To me, the illusions are now clear.
My grace causes me to fall and stutter.
Hate makes me want to get to know you better,
and this emptiness makes me feel so cluttered.

This sense of safety is causing me to build walls,
being in a panic seems to calm me down.
Loyalty has now stabbed me in the back,
and my skill of swimming causes me to drown.

The heat that is surrounding me has me shivering,
and bravery is making me feel like shying away.
Intelligence has me saying all the wrong answers,
and faithfulness is making me go astray.

Blindness helps me see to find my way through the dark,
and fate is now something that is in my control.
The rage I have is causing me to lower my voice,
and my broken heart makes me feel whole.

These are just a few things I've been feeling since you decided to leave.
My world doesn't seem to make sense anymore.
In anything logical, I know longer believe.
I'm afraid the only way i will recover, is if things went back to like before.

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