Hidden Secrets

Although my mind is open
my heart is tightly closed
With all the hate that holds me
I wish I didn't own
For all the years that pass by
I know I should have changed
How can one man sever the links that make these chains
And then I see...
what my life should be
I'm here dying for another chance to make this right
And I wish for more then I could
Ever give to you
And I know that you don't need the
Hell I put you through
I'm here with my hands open confused on what to do
I wish that I could take back,
the words I've said to you
& your eyes widen to tell me
how u could've seen
your mouth spills out all the words u don't mean
Inside alone
This world's coming down on me again
Nowhere to run to
As these twisted thoughts flow through my head
I never wanted to break away
Can't help that you don't feel the same
And now I'm standing here
Asking myself if I'm to blame
These silent words you'll never hear
These frozen thoughts will not appear
And I'm breaking down inside of me
Still no one sees
I stare into myself I'm scared
Of what I just might find
A reflection of my past
Something I've always tried to hide