Lived fear, unfeared pain

I had to replace an original word with freaking.

How could love so strong,
Turn out so "freaking" wrong?
I once smiled inside,
Thinking we'd pull through.

How the hell is it possible,
For me to move on?
My heart was held together,
By you, my only bond.

The nights i once stayed up,
Praying to God full of hope.
I now spend suffocating,
Stuck in a hell bounded rope.

I'm living a nightmare,
Without you by my side.
When i once drempt of you,
In my arms, as you cried.

I saw them all crumble,
The lovers that i knew.
I was ignoring the signs,
That next was me and you.

I held onto a feeling,
That fate was you and me.
But now i am screaming,
Through my tears of agony.

How could i feel that way,
That we would be forever?
The world around us melted,
When we were once lovers.

What did i do so horrid,
That you no longer want to be.
Not even a friend anymore,
What am i failing to see?

You've set fire to me,
The dark pain in my soul.
Once imprisoned by love,
That broke free and now grows.

All i can do is wait,
Crawl through each day.
Cry and smile over memories,
That make me feel this way.

Even writing this now,
The poem I don't know.
Makes me mourn inside,
This Isn't how we'll go.

For i've realized that I,
Will give you all of my heart.
And if these became my words,
I'll love you with broken parts.

I know i wouldn't die,
But it'd be hard to survive.
The feeling would be painful,
As if i'm dying inside.

Yet I love you so much,
And want you to be free.
I won't show you this because,
I know that you, also love me.

I'm giving you all i can,
And i know we'll make it through.
We're forever like the tree,
with the names of me and you.

So it's up to you now,
The girl i miss so much.
Don't make me delete this half,
And keep me within your touch.

For all those confused, broken hearted, or broken-up with. =D