My Today

My eyes peer out to the world surrounding
me, but they don't understand a thing.
All the candy kisses given to me were fake,
Caramel used to have a taste, but now
it's gone.
Chocolate kisses aren't all that sweet either.
My sense, gone forever.
My melancholy, here to stay.

I'm not suppose to be the damsel in
distress anymore.
I'm not suppose to be weak.
I'm not suppose to wait for things to be
okay, but I am.
I am, but I don't know who I am anymore.
I was suppose to be strong, but I now
can't.

With every breath I draw in, my lungs
expand and my rib cage aches.
I'm sorry if I hurt you, because I just
want to say good-bye.
To everything and everyone that's ever hurt
me too.
But all this time they were too busy to even hear me.

I'm sitting here on my bed.
I want the phone to ring, and I don't
even care if the person calling hears me cry.