Animosity

Wake up -
And the world doesn't seem quite the same today
Something is changed
But I can never figure out what
The strength possessed by my mind
Is drawn out in segments
Day by day

The walls are getting thicker
Stacked blocks
Made of all the wrong turns I followed through
Fence me in to this despair
Like an animal locked up inside a cage
My own skin- the bars that won't break
Or is it really my mind I'm a prisiner of?

They say I'm doing this the wrong way
I'm too smart to let it take control
To let myself go down this way- without a fight
But I'm so very tired
All my thoughts are distorted
And the bitterness imposed on my soul
For all these years
Has taken hold, more so than ever before

You ask me to trust dear
But it's not that easy
My love is quite limited these days
And I've been abandoned so many times
That trust is not something I can ever securely give away
I'm slowly becoming apathetical
Because worn out doesn't seem a good fit these days

I've been to so many places
And seen too much for my age
I've held resentment and anger so close to me
It tore me apart
I've seen all the ugly
Now I'm begging you- please
Show me something pretty
Just show me something pretty