Oh i can feel it
feel the urges flowing back
feel the pressure building up inside of me
feel that temptation to end it all
I'm turning into that animal
that animal i used to be
the darkness is all crawling back under my skin
and settling back into its home
its home right in the core of me
all that rage is still there
it never left me
I'm still caged up inside
and i cant control myself
I'm remembering the real me
that suicidal failure
that manikin of hatred and sorrow
that old bleeding scar tissue
my head is spinning
spinning faster and faster
and it wont go away
no matter how much i want it to stop
it just keeps going
i can't stop this carousel
I'll remain in these chains forever
always the victim of my pain
forever waiting for perfection
in an eternity of hate
and i cant hide it
hide the shame, hide the past
everybody knows it
my secrets reviled for the whole world to know
i cant ignore this now
cos its all I'm feeling
theres nothing else in my body
except all these strings
all my veins
and theres still regret
regret of everything i have ever done
regret of letting him slip through my fingers
regret of not letting me bleed
help me burn out the pain
help me numb my thoughts
help me cut this outta my soul
and I'll live without my senses
Please someone, hold my head down
i wanna drown my sorrow
so I'll never see another day
so I'll never take another breath
why do i live this lie?
Why do i dream of my death?
why do i bother bothering?
Why live a lie? Why,why?
