Torn into two

My heart is torn in two
One part wants to be with him, the other with you
Both of you will be gone for who knows how long
The true strength in me will prove that I'm strong
Everyday people fall in love
Find that one person they are proud of
Am I lucky to find the both of you
There is a special part that I love about you two
You don't know the other exists
But there is a difference in the way I kiss
I can be wild and free with you
But shy and cute with him I hate to do
But there is a part of him I cant let go
The fact that he really makes me glow
I can smile for days on end
While with you, me being happy I have to pretend
If only I can create
The perfect man any woman wants to date
Eventually I will understand
Where my heart truly lands
Either with you or with him
Or someone else isn't all that slim
Can I ever be faithfully to a man?
I am going to start my life plan
Better to be not played by the one you love
Then to have to see him with someone you want to get rid of