Tears...

My pillow has been stained with my heartbroken tears
That smile you adore isn't what it appears
I hid the fact that I cared for you
Stayed silent when my feelings for you grew
I swore to myself before that I wouldn't fall
I never meant to back myself into a wall
A wall that meant It would be a long time
A long time until I ever knew you that would be mine
How do people survive?
Saying goodbye the the person that once helped them thrive
You gave me the strength to believe in me
You were the first person to ever make me feel free
Friends say give it time and everything will be fine
As if they had the manual to help soothe this broken heart of mine
I haven't cried in a few days
Us being together before has turned into a dreamy haze
I believe my eyes cannot cry anymore
The pain I feel I have tried to ignore
The pillow you used to sleep still is near me
It seems in order to imagine being near you that is the key
Come home soon and heal my pain
And see the joy in my face that I gain
Stop my tears from ever returning
Come home and fulfill my yearning