This is why I am this way!!

Know one understands me
Know one knows why I act the way I do
For someone to see the things I have
And feel the things I do
They would know why

To understand me is to difficult
You see my fake happiness
My love for life
Yet inside I feel nothing
I just want someone to understand

To watch the person you love the most kill themselves
Everything around you stops moving
You grow up wondering what was so bad
What made her do this to you??

Yes I am insane
I cannot handle many situations
I am easily set off
But all that comes with a price.
When you have lived my life
You would understand

To have an attraction for someone
Then watch him rape you.
As if you wanted it
How would you handle it?
How would you tell your family?
Or would never tell a soul
Like I did

Nothing can erase those things from my mind
I am stuck reliving every moment
Now, do you finally understand?
Do you see why I am like this?
If you had to fight to keep yourself from going insane
You would know why this is who I am