For 22 years all I've wanted was someone to count on.
Someone to just let me be me
Someone to listen without me having to ask
For 22 years everything I've wanted in someone seems unreal
almost imaginary
Until I saw you
I thought my whole life would change.
For a while it did
But when you think about it
You ended up like everyone else.
When you talk all I hear is blah blah blahed
Your negative comments break me down
The love I have for you is never ending
Yet the thoughts I have running through my head
Could destroy me at any second
I find myself staring at nothing
Wondering how I can end all this
I never thought I would be this miserable
Hating everything and everyone
To think I will be married soon
To someone I hardly know
There is no conversation between us
Other then screams and lack of enthusiasm
For 22 years I have waited so long for you
Waiting for someone to show my true self
But now she is locked away
Scared to come out
Afraid of being laughed at
Or even damaged one more time
I want nothing more then to escape
Take down these walls of rage I have built so high up
My hatred runs so deep inside me.
I don't know how else to live
I miss my friend
The friend that would make me feel special
Give 100% of there soul
Without asking for a single thing in return
I want that person that shared everything
No mater what it was?
I need that friend that had fun
And loved to be with me
I am dying inside
Dying from being alone and never understood
I can't take being pushed off
As if who I am is nothing
For 22 years I have waited
I don't think I can wait much longer
