Dear Father

Dear Father, I'm writing to let you know
To let you know that I'm still alive
I can't say that I forgive you, I don't
Cos on my own I've learned to survive

All these years that have gone behind me
The pain that you've put use through
I can't say that I miss you, I don't
Cos I've long stopped wishing for you

The times I've cried, you weren't there
You've never been there for me at all
I can't say that I love you, I don't
You weren't there to catch my falls

When I lay awake at night wishing for you
And my wish was just left to hang
I can't say that I'm surprised, I'm not
But it's okay now, I'm still living

When you promised, I'd be your little girl
What you said was all just bull-shit
I can't say that I blame you, I don't
But I wasn't that hard to live with

The times we had when you were here
I used to miss you so damn much
You won't say you regret it, you don't
But you've put me through enough

I guess I only have myself to blame
I was too much so you went away
I can't say I want you back, I dont
Even if you returned, you wouldn't stay

I'm not sure if you'll read this letter
You won't write back, sure won't cry
I can't say I expect you to, I don't
So Father, again, this is goodbye

Written addressed to my father. I don't think he ever got it