Uphill battle ((if i gave up now))

Little colored lights
dotting the world below
i wonder why i told you
wonder why you get to know

Affection's so like this weather
cold and giddy fresh
snapping wind wipes earth clean,
and nothing real is left

Shattered are the broken dreams,
too much like this broken heart,
every day's an uphill battle,
losing from the start

Fingers are too shakey now,
for some reason, i don't want to write,
too tired, to afraid,
too worthless to carry on this fight

If i gave up now,
would you cry over my grave?
or would you curse my silent words,
the silent words i never gave?