Moving On Isnt As Easy As It Sounds

You watch me fall from a distance,
come over with a helping hand.
Do I dare grasp ahold of this kind gesture?
Or ignore it because I am scared of the past.
The past that has repeated itself many times before.
Is this another repeat?
Shall we hit rewind, and play all over again.
Watch me shout with pain.
Begging for it all to just go away.
For now, ill put your offer on hold.
Hoping you don't forget about my presence.
For I am not in pain, I am just experiencing a numb sensation.