I am speechless
when you speak to me
i don't say a word, i let you be with me
i can't speak , i can't let you know what i feel for you
it's so hard to let you go but
after school i was hanging out and you come and rap your arms around me
i didn't have to turn to know it was you, but you scared me a little
babe i don't know
then i decide to sit on the wall and you get between my legs and put your arms on my knee and tickle me
i rap my arms around your neck and you gently lift me up
my legs rap around your waste, and you smile at me and i smile at you
you sit down and motion for me to come to you
so i do and then you put your arms around my front and have your hands around my neck
it's so hard but i kiss your arm
nothing else happens even though i was thinking about that too
i get up slowly and you follow me and put your hands were they belong only on me
and i think at this moment i want to be with you
so i can only call you mine
i want to stay in this moment for ever ,never to leave your side
but that was yesterday , and now today you spend the hole lunch time holding me and i don't know what to say
we say very few words
and your hand rap around me and rub the side of my body
they lay perfectly on my stomach and i put my head back on you
and you move my hair
because i told you if you touch it I'll kill you
so then you touch it and i hold you closer to me pulling you close , i move my body so we are touching every body part together
i laugh when you move
and push yourself close to me
you press your fingers on my back
and i put my hands on your upper back and hold you tight to me
pressing me against you
you grab me tight and don't let me go
your arms meet at the small of my back and you grab my hands too and hold them and we both have hands on my back i swear at this moment you love me so i look up at you and say i love you with a meaning
and you say it back to
but just the way i said it sweet , something inside hurt me
i know you don't like me but you know that i love you
i cant help it , it just happened i can't choose who i fall in love with, it just happened to be you
i wouldn't trade the world for a love like we use to have
every one else is leaving and we are there your back up against a wall and me up against you
at my height just the perfect size
i kiss your arm
i don't want to make a wrong move and have you tell me to stop
so i put my hands around your neck and you lift me up
i haven't done this for a long time because this is how i use to kiss you
hands around your neck as i look at you
so i move my head to your shoulder and lean on you
you rub my back with your hands and i feel that tingle
because you know I'm ticklish on my back and stomach
i show you how to rub soft and slow and not fast
you look at me as i take your hand and move it up and down my stomach slowly and gently sigh and then laugh
then i take your hand and rap it around me and you rub my back ,you don't let go until you tell me i need to go to class and then with a final hug and a final goodbye you say see you tomorrow and that is that
i can't tell you how i feel other than i wish it could be more than this i don't want to ruin our friendship but babe i know somehow you have to still love me
you don't just do that with anybody its just me
but even if it is just like this please no matter what don't let me go.
This is my wonderful love days with the guy i love, 5/20 and 5/21. dedicated to you like always.<3 <3 <3
