Dont mention her name.. please?

Her name is mentioned
and just like that my head starts to spin
there's a constant reminder
of all her dirty sins

she's with her new girl
my friends see them down the street
they tell me all about it
my heart stops its beat

it hurts like hell
evening hearing her name
just knowing that my heart
was nothing but a game

a part of me will always care
but the rest wants to be alone
i don't want to hear from her
or talk on the phone

I'm over being messed around
and feeling like sh*t
i pretend your name doesn't hurt me
but I'll always feel the hit

i just want the memories to fade
and for each scar to heal
i want to throw away emotions
cause i just don't want to feel

you'll always be in my heart
because i fell in love with you
but i hate you for the hurt you caused to me
but you'll never have a clue

one day you'll realize girl
just what you throw away
but just know it was all your choice
you could have had me stay....