Under the stars

The night you didn't come home
I found myself sitting in the dark
awaiting your return...

My younger sister gone to sleep,
The older one becoming so
suddenly weak...
She cried herself a lullaby
of tears...
I sat there holding her hand
and comforting her fears...

Don't say that you simply left because
of me. because you know that
is not true, I was only a child...
What more did you expect me to do...

He was so intoxicated
he couldn't even stand
then he got into his car
trying to take matters into is
own hands...

I didn't hear him leave
or else I would have stopped him
for in his intoxicated state
the road was nothing but his deadly fate...

The night you didn't come home
I found myself sitting in the dark
awaiting your return..

I counted the stars in the sky
praying that you would return home alive
I'm not usually the type to talk to God,
To this day I still wonder if he even heard...

Maybe it is better this way
now that you are out of your pain
but the question I ask is
what were you thinking,
what possessed you to
get in the car even though you
had been drinking...

Years have gone
and days have passed yet...
I still find myself waiting under the stars....