You Made Me Like This

And I'll pretend that everything is okay.
But honestly, it's eating me up inside.
I want to pretend,
I want to forget,
I want to breathe.
I'll put on an act
So you won't know what I'm thinking.

The scars I make,
The lies you tell,
Brought on by pain and despair.
It's never going to get us anywhere.

I wish you could see
The hurt in my eyes.
I wish you could hear
The fear in my laughter.
Sometimes I think you see right through me.
Sometimes I think you forget me.

I don't want to keep living like this.
Trust me, it's getting old.
And just when I think I'm finally happy,
I fall back into that hole.
What's the use of climbing out,
If all you're going to do is fall back in?
What's the use of trying,
If you're just going to create another sin?

I cry
And I fail.
I break
And I bleed.
Wait, let me put on my mask
So you won't really see.
But bit by bit,
I'm falling apart.
And I'm just waiting
Until you notice when I'm gone.