Depression

I don't have much to say anymore
I've kinda just lost my voice
Not from saying alot
Just from not talking by choice

I don't see the point anymore
Why talk, when no one's there
Not even a "hi"
Or a "hey, I care"

This depression really has changed me
Believe it or not, I use to be fun
Now when things get tough
I say "f^^^ it" and run

Day to Day there's something new
I can't even seem to get a break
Now every time I smile,
Even I can tell it's fake

Night to Night it's just a routine
My baby sister wakes up crying
Her nightmares are just like mine
She too is scared of dying

I hold her till she falls asleep
Gently wiping the tears
I don't want her to be like me
Full of all the same fears

I guess you could say I'm not proud
Depressions really got me down
Just walking beside a pool
I hope I slip and I drown

These thoughts, the need to change
For the sake of my baby sister.
If something were to happen
I know I would miss her