Not going to be easy...

Everyday talk of the future
The future of everyone but me
I sit around and listen
but I know that it can never be

It hits me hard
The reality of what I will soon face
A new start that I'm not sure
I'm ready for

Why does it have to be now?
Why does all my happiness
have to end so abrupt
This was not what was supposed to happen.

I'm screaming inside
But nobody can hear me
My head spins and argues
I can't do this, I can't do this

How can I possibly begin again
With friends like the ones I have
With the best of people,
why now? Why me?

This life of mine is pointless
From this moment on
I'm not going to make friends
They just end up leaving

I just end up leaving
They never stay
And it all ends too soon
Everything ends too soon

I've always dreamt of a happy ending
Now I know that
not all stories have
A clear beginning, middle and end.

And not all poems rhyme
I'm going to have to suck it up
I'm going to have to accept change
But its not going to be easy

*** not a very good poem, but its more of a rant, so there it is... enjoy!