Turn for the worse

My words have taken
A turn for the worse.
My thoughts scattered,
But always ending coheres.

Im in too deep.
Im out of control.
But I cant help it,
If youre the goal.

They say its wrong.
They forbid it completely.
Ive known it all along.
But I wont, I cant stop.

Your dark eyes
Your secret smile.
All so addicting.
But all worthwhile.

So Ill sleep tonight,
And wake tomorrow
Knowing its even worse
My mind turning hallow.

For you see,
Im digging a hole,
Knowing its all wrong.

And sooner or later
Itll be too deep,
Too late,
To get out.