This is about my mom

My mama always told me to never depend on a guy
She gave me everything that money could buy
She was the best mom that she could possibly be
She told me to never let a guy see me crying
She always smiled and laughed even when times got rough
She stood strong for me and told me to always be tough

Times got really bad after my parents separated
A lot of bullshit from my dad was what she tolerated
As my parents separated, me and her got closer
When times got bad, I use to always go to her
But then she met her boyfriend
Then that was when our relationship came to an end
I told her I hated him, I hated his every being
Me and her separating was something she wasn't seeing
There was a time when I could've sworn she chose him over me
Her loving another man was something I never wanted to see

Then I started to hate her, because she wouldn't let me hang out
I started to push her out, not letting her know what my life was about
I started to cry when she yelled at me for being out late
I started to yell at her for making me so miserable and even used the word hate
Me and my friends use to debate about who had the worst mother in the world
Not realizing that no matter what I did or said, I'm still her baby girl

I even ran away from her, wishing I would never have to come back home
Never realizing that I left her in this cold world all alone
Never realizing how she would worry about me
How her love was something she couldn't make me see
She called all my friends crying asking about my whereabouts
When I kept in contact with her, all she did was cry and beg but never shout
The day I came back home, was the day god had granted her angel back
I always thought that her love was something I always lacked
But when you really think about it, it was the one thing I always had
She never got too mad at me no matter if I was good or bad

She kicked her boyfriend out and I told him to go to hell
My utter hatred for him was something she could finally tell
She told me that she needed him for comfort and affection
A field where my dad never paid any attention
He had money and we were going through a drought
She stopped when her love for me became a doubt

A couple months ago, I found out that my mom has cancer
Now the only fear I have is losing her
I pray to god at night, wishing he wouldn't take her from me
She's MY mom, my life and my every thing
If she died, I would crawl next to her and die with her
She's my best friend, my family and my world
Nobody could ever replace her spot in my heart
No matter what world she's in, we'll never be apart
In my mind, she's always next to me
And I hope from this poem, my love to my mom is something you can see

So to all the people out there who still has their mom
Please don't take her for granted because she's below none
She might not show that she loves you with all her heart
But it makes her cry, worries her everytime you guys are apart
So please tell your mom that you love her
That nobody else will be above her

I know my moms' love for me is unconditional
So I'm writing this poem, so when she passes away, I could read this at her funeral
I love you mom and I will always need you by my side
My love for you is something I should never need to hide