Inside Ana's Mind

Deceitful mirror
Why do you show me these lies?
My image is so distorted
Can't you see by the look in my eyes
That I'm dying
Bones protruding from my back
That my flesh is pale
And my hair is frail
On the verge of a panic attack
I'm lonely and scared
And my muscles are aching
I'm cold and I'm shivering
Just look at what you're taking...
My confidence
My soul
My one and only hope
Of ever becoming myself again
But instead of showing me
What I want to see
You show me these lies
These corpulent thighs
This portly stomach
These absurd porcine arms
Do you mean to do harm?
Or is this who I really am?
So I must keep going
For fear that this image is true
I wont stop until I'm there
They see that I'm weak
But continue to stare
They think it's a joke
Call me "fat" as a oxymoron
But they don't see
That this is me
That I don't see what they see
I'm alone and I'm lost
And my stomach is grumbling
I walk through the halls
Nobody sees me stumbling
For life
And for air
And for just a speck of food
What in god's name is a girl to do?
And as I reach
For that one last breath of air
I realize that I am almost there
These white walls
Won't keep me hostage for long
For all of my weight is almost gone
A staggering 62 pounds
They'll never make fun of me again
When the see me in this hospital bed
They'll never make fun of me
When they see that I'm dead